captain tee jay here -
hey world. whats new ?
cool cool. wow me too!
ha good stuff. you are one funny spring chicken world :)
wow ok so now that my fake banter with the world is over we can get down to the nitty gritty. I give my heartfelt apologies for being so completely absent this past year. Its been a long past few months. A lot has happened since I last posted on here and I have changed quite a bit. A little more grown up but still a goofy kid at heart. I had lost sight of myself, and what made me tick.
I was all about this girl, however somehow I allowed myself to get complacent and stopped trying to better myself and the relationship. She was a great person and I thought we were on the same page.. but it was my fault we weren't and my fault for not being aware of that until the damage was done. When that ended a few months ago I felt like I had no choice but to rethink a few things. Most importantly myself and the choices I was making. I wanted to fight for her and I tried to let her know I was willing to fix anything but it didn't matter her mind had changed about the guy I was. Real relationships require hard work.. in my head and heart I knew that, but thought I could keep her happy with just the basics. Maybe she was high maintenance or I was a lazy fuck. Probably a little of each... guess that's what they mean by "Live and ya learn".
Anywayssss.. on a lighter note.. Im coming back to you internet world. Im gunna try to make this work, as an outlet for my thoughts and practice my writing. There will be a mix of interesting topics, short stories, social commentary, and links to music, podcasts, images I enjoy and want to share. I am beginning my training to compete in the 2016 Summer Olympics for the American Swim Team. I will also use this place as a way to track my progress. Got a long ways to go but why not dream big?? There are no limiting beliefs here. Worst case scenario, I get into the best shape of my life. Ill take that.
Stay posted.. more to come!
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